The Kite Runner

There were times I think the deaths are luckier

They don’t have to think about tomorrow anymore

They don’t even have to think about yesterday anymore

But my faith taught me that death is not an end, it’s just another beginning for the after life

An eternal one

And in the waiting for the eternal one, there will be hundred years to spent in darkness, or in light – depends on what you’ve done in your lifetime

There were also times I think other people are luckier

For what they have

For what I have not

For what they did

For what I did not

But I forgot to count my blessings

For you, for the thousandth times

My first book on this year is Khaled Hosseini’s “The Kite Runner”, that my lovely boss gave me few days ago, and I just finished it only on two days. It’s not an evening coffee book, and yes it’s a little scary inside, but the book makes me think a lot.

That before the war, every place must be a beautiful place, a meaningful place for someone.

A place where they start breathing, a place where they start to fall in love, a place they learned about life, a place they want to spent the rest of their lives or even a place where they want to be buried after they die.

To live in such a peaceful place I think is the greatest gift for me.

I can’t even imagine if I have to live my life in a war zone, no, I don’t even dare to think about it

To be surrounded by nice people is also another blessing.

People that always remind you to do good thing, to have a positive thinking and attitude, to be grateful for everything you have.

People that you love so much and you don’t want them to feel hurt, and for them you will do anything, even if it means letting them go from your life – or worse-  walking away from their life, and all you can do is pray for their happiness.
People that even for so many times they might hurt you, you can never do the same. 

And for those people this phrase exist "Tapi untukmu, walaupun untuk yang keseribu kalinya"

“Datanglah, ada jalan untuk kembali menuju kebaikan”

And reading this book I found the same feeling I felt few years ago

When I think about how many things I did wrong

And how could I be still alive after that, when I feel I don’t deserve it

I remember what Rahim Khan said to Amir “There’s always a way to come back to the right path”

And in one way or another, God helps me through it and I can never be more thankful than that.

When this book was handed to me, I also knew it’s another reminder

To start reading again, to start wondering again, to start writing again

To open my eyes so I can see the hidden messages, to open my mind so I can understand them, and to open my heart so I can accept them

For myself so I won’t get lost anymore.

Ps. Many thanks to Ms. Angela Soedjana for the book, a book is indeed a best gift for a bookworm 😘